Yet again I stare blankly into my screen, my eyes swelling up with tears, like I did seven months ago. Well another knight in shining armour turns out to be a dork in tin foil (as learned from the #Noteboook).
The only thing that's different this time around is the plug was pulled without any reason being given whatsoever. We attended his friend's wedding weekend before last and three days later we argue over something quite stupid and next thing I know I am no longer his facebook contact and just like that all communication is cut. Yep! You could say I found out on facebook it's over.
And whilst the factors in this break up seem to be consistent with the previous one, I must give the previous ex credit for atleast cooking up a reason for calling it quits (yes he dumped me but as is typical of the "dumper" he wants me back now...unfortunately for him I don't eat puke). Anyway the point of this entry is to reiterate my belief in love. Sure I may be in some era of misfortune when it comes to finding the one who likes me enough to see the beauty I possess even on the inside and the love and fidelity that come with it (or even have the decency to inform me when it's over) but that doesn't stop me from still believing in the greatest gift ever given to humankind: LOVE. To stop believing in it would be, you could say, the death of my soul for my soul is a lover.
Yes I will never stop believing in love for God is love and just as He is the anchor and pillar of my existence, so is love. It really isn't love's fault that the men I have been with aren't strong enough to handle the might and genuity in the love that I possess or is it love's fault that they purpote to be wanting the give and receive it under false pretences only to realise when it's too late that actually in true nature they do need it. That's their problem not mine or love's. Like Lira put it I am born of love and I choose to let it remain in my heart and mind. Joy may not yet have decided to be my friend but love is my pillar.... and it's only a matter of time before joy comes to party.
KaMwelase.
